It's been awhile.

Well, it's been a good while since I have written a blog. I have been keeping busy, and maybe that is why I haven't written in so long. Also, I have been extremely tired, my homework gets the best of me, and when I'm not looking at a computer screen due to hw, I would rather not look at one at all. Well I guess I should try to update as best as possible.

Im in the process of going back to my natural color before baby gets here. I have gone 3 times so far, and this time when I go in on friday, will be my last time going :) It's almost there, I'm just happy to finally be done with my black hair.

A week or so ago, I went to sonic, backed out of the car stall and heard a loud scraping and scratching. Come to find, my front drivers side fender and bumper was all scratched and dented. There was a huge piece of rusted metal hanging off the pole that holds the menu, and It cost me $642.00 with tax to get it fixed. But I got my goldie locks back today, and she is as good as new!

I have decided to take the summer semester off for when baby jonathan comes. It will be easier. And if I am going to take time off, I better do it while the hubby is still away and we are getting extra pay, even though we really do not need the extra pay, it's just safer this way. Some people will look down on me for taking a break, but it is what I and Jonathan feel is best, and it keeps me from worrying about failing or something cause I know I will lose a lot of sleep. So I will resume college in the fall, which will start back up in Oct. It is better this way anyhow because for the last year, I have been doing hw constantly and it has felt like a full time job, and I am so ready for a break anyhow. With this time off I'll be focusing on taking care of my little ones and keeping them happy, healthy babies! There is nothing more important than that when baby jonathan comes. I'll need all the time in the world to dedicate to my kids, and I don't want to have too much on my plate. Just looking out for myself.

I am not sure if I have said this in previous posts or not, but Jonathan and I have decided, if he gets the granted leave, we will be paying for a ticket for him to come home for the birth. He will only get about 3 1/2 days, but that is so much better than nothing, granted he missed jaylea's birth as well. The military sure does mess with your life, but all you can do is accept it and move forward.

April 18th was jonathan and mine's two year wedding anniversary! So happy we made it another year, but we pry won't ever have a problem making it, as we have been together for 5 years this june, and we have been through a lot together :). We have always stuck together, and after 5 years, I am still so in love with him :).

Life is okay right now. However, time is slowing down. I'm 23 weeks today. I have 17 to go, or 16 if jon comes home and they induce me. Whichever way you look at it, I still have a little time left, and I just wish it would pick up a little more. Times have gotten tough, but jaylea and I are okay, and that is the most important. This deployment, for some odd reason, is much harder than the last... and he was in iraq and afghanistan the last deployment. But somehow, this one is harder. Not sure. I've been lost a few times already.

My Spring B session starts on sunday, I just finished my last final for Spring A session last night. So this is the last 8 weeks before I take the summer semester off. I have to say, I'm looking forward to a break, I really am.

But I think I have caughte everyone up enough... at least I am sure that I have. So I'm signing off!

Don't forget where your heart really lies, even if the one who it lies with, is millions of miles, and months away.

Well crap I did it again...

I totally give up with remembering and finding time to write everynight. I feel so guilty.. and it's just a blog. It's not suppose to feel like my hw. But for some reason it does! UGH!

Anywho... yesterday, I ordered the babies bathtub, which is super cool, is has a digital thermometer, and also a clean water system so the baby is never bathed in dirty water! I also ordered my Moby Baby wrap, which is super awesome and I cannot wait to get it! Today we went to the mall with krystin, and I got a pair of camo capris for like 7 bucks, and they even have a stretchy waist band(and they aren't even technically maternity pants, love charlotte rousse)!!! I also got jaylea a shirt that says "Sorry boys, my daddy says I can't date till I'm 30!!!!!" Which is totally adorable... gotta love spencers!!! Then I got the baby a set of 4 receiving blankets, they were on sale at pennys.. originally almost 30 bucks and I got them for 8 :). I got another pair of pajama pants for 4 bucks.. they are SO freaking cute. They were originally 40!!! You can say I bargain shopped today! Then we went grocery shopping and I got a lot of food again... Now, I gotta take it easy, my pantry is over flowing... while we were at walmart I got jaylea 2 new outfits, I got her a pooh bear one that came with 3 pieces and also got her a  little green and white dress. She needs more summer clothes so everytime we are out I try to get her something new so Im not spending a bunch of money at one time. And also I have more to choose from this way!

This morning I talked to jon for quite a while. He got some news on coming home for the birth... it will only consist of 4 days tops(as of right now, who knows it may change) But now he no longer needs a travel buddy, which means him coming home won't depend on someone else. Which is great! So things are looking up! Now we just have to pray that he gets the full word he is allowed. We have PLENTY of money in savings to cover the ticket and will still have a lot left over, so money is definitely not an issue. We just pray he gets the a-ok for sure to come home!!!

Other than that, things are good. And jaylea and I are just taking it day by day... however, December feels so far away. On the 6th we'll be 2 months down and we'll only have 8 months left...(ha, I say only....like thats not long, whatever) it doesn't make things any easier that there are homecoming signs out the ass all over base for all the other batallions coming home... crappy we have to deal with this till mid deployment... it's hard. It really is, if I didn't love Jon as much as I did and I hadn't been with him for so long, I would not have chosen this life for myself or our kids... but sometimes, God makes us do things that are hard. But I have always been told, If God brings you to it, he'll see you through it. And so far, he has definitely had my back this deployment. But honestly 5 years was too long of a time for us to throw away just because he decided to join the Navy. It sucks, but damnit, I love that man, and we have been there for eachother through everything. Since my sophomore year of hs, and that is a long time. Just wish this were a little easier. I will say though, I am damn proud to say I and him sacrafice our family so he can protect the country, and he makes me awfully proud. I know he is doing good over there. Well of course, he is helping build a school so the little ones over there can get a better education. :)! That is always amazing! No offence, but that is almost cooler than the SWA HUTS they built over in Iraq and Afganistan. lol! No.. it is cooler! But I am proud, and I love knowing he was man enough to serve his country. That is more than I can say for some others. I could go on for hours how proud I am, but it's bedtime for me.

Have a good night.

If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.

WE ARE HAVING A BOY!!!!

So I found out yesterday(3/29) that....we will be having a baby BOY!!! So so so exciting! I was so happy, and jon said he screamed when he found out! I had to tell him through MSN messenger on my phone, do to the fact the phones were down all day sunday and monday..but at least I did get to tell him after I found out! It was so exciting! Other than that not much else is going on! I went to walmart last night cause I couldn't resist anymore...I bought 3 outfits, 2 for summer, one for fall, and a little munchkin care cart, which the cart is going back to walmart because the holes were not drilled properly so lucky me couldn't get it assembled! UGH! But that is ok, only because it was not as tall at the picture looked, it was about half the height of the crib, which is not very tall, the picture on the front makes it look almost just as tall as the crib. That's what you get though, looks will always be decieving. I also got 2 sets of 10 infant hangers, but got home and realized that one set (the blue set) only had 9- JUST my luck. But I am not mad about it enough to bring them back and exhange them, they are only 1.00 for 10. So it's not that big of a deal.  I watched the Time Travelers wife tonight with Krystin, we red box-ed it! Very good, but very sad. I thought the life of a military wife was hard....but her life, that would have been harder, to NEVER know when your husband was leaving, and then NEVER knowing when he is coming back, at least we get somewhat of a heads up they are going and a general idea of when they are coming back. Ugh, so sad. It really hit my heart.

I keep forgetting to write. My mind is so...gone, you could say it's been horrible.

I am still keeping the Adams family in my prayers. Jimmy had to come home from haiti due to his lung collapsing. I feel so bad for Tonya and what she must be going through, But she is VERY strong and has a heart of steel that I don't think anything could break her down, she is very strong. But of course, I feel even worse for Jimmy, as Tonya said this is the second lung that collapsed. It is so sad, and I just pray that the Good Lord wraps his arms around this family, and blesses them, and heals Jimmy fast! I also pray the CO of 7 doesn't send him back out anytime soon. The last thing he needs is for his lungs to relapse. My opinion is that he just needs to stay home so he doesn't risk getting hurt anymore. Anyone who reads this, whether you know the family or not, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for them, he is out of surgery on recovering, but sometimes that just isn't good enough, we need him to be healed all the way. We need him to be close to as good as new as possible. Please keep this family in your prayers, they deserve it, but do not deserve all they have gone through.

Please also remember, never take what you have for granted, one day it may all be gone. Tonya almost experienced that, and if I were her, I would have been dead myself  a long time ago, she is so strong and I admire her for all she has gone through! Very strong lady! I want to be like her someday :)!

Other than that, I am going to come to a close with this. I need to get to bed!

...A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart.....

It's been forever...

A lot has been missed and I have not been writing. Jaylea and I were sick for the longest time, and I have been slammed with homework. It has been hectic. But hopefully now, I can catch up and stay up, I feel so bad for missing my blogs...but what can you do? Right? Anywho...time has been flying by this deployment...so far at least, I'm just curious as to when days will start to feel like years... I know eventually it's coming... and in a way, I wish the slow down would come and go so I can get it over with. I really miss jonathan. He isn't in Djibouti anymore, he was moved to Comoros( a little island off Africa) for a few weeks to do some CE work in the school they are building. The only thing he dislikes out there is the heat, but other than that, where he stays, he says it feels like a vacation. He says it's so pretty in Comoros. I am glad he got away from Djibouti for a while. He seems to not be as tense. Other than that, things are good. We went to Tonya's easter party today, that was nice to just talk with the other wives and get some adult conversation in. It was needed. It was also a lot of fun. Jaylea consumed a lot of sugar, but at least she had fun.

I finally got my living room set exchanged, after fighting with the furniture store for weeks, it was finally accomplished, and I love my new set. And it isn't so large that I can't do anything with my living room, I could re-arrange it plenty of ways now. So in a way, I am kind of happy that my old set was messed up, I could only rearrange my living room one way, now I can do plenty of different things.

All the homecoming signs for 74 kill me....and it sucks because we won't get a break from any signs until the middle of our deployment. One's signs will be out right after 74's, and the 133's will follow after that. I can't believe it. Our sings should be going up when all the other ones will be done... and that really does stink. I guess all I can do is try not to look....which is impossible...cause they are everywhere...but I will try.

Other than this, I have a lot of hw to get done, and jay needs a bath before bed, so I am gonna go ahead and close this now!!!

We only part to meet again. And while we are parted, we gain more love, an amount of love no one other than a military family will ever experience, it is true greatness.

Two sick chicks..18 weeks today

I can't believe I keep getting behind on my blogs...I feel horrible that I can't keep up, doesn't help that I am once again sick, and so is jay, so I guess you could say this house is nothing but two sick chicks! I am a very busy person though, pregnancy(which I am 18 weeks today :) ), 2 1/2 year old, full time student, so it's not like I'm just lazy... anywho I hate it when jaylea is sick, because she always milks it really bad, and makes herself handicap... I would like to be handicap for a day and have everyone do everything for me :(..that isn't happening anytime soon! I finally talked to jon today after two days of not hearing from him, I missed his voice and seeing his face so much!. Jaylea should be in bed right now, but she is not, she is laying on my side under the blankets, here on the couch, and I think tonight is a mommy and daughter cuddle night. She will probably be sleeping with me as she cried for a good 15 minutes by her door not even attempting to fall asleep. My poor girl. But other than that, I got jayleas toy box in today, started to put it together and Im pretty sure they sent me two of the wrong sides. So I filled out my return sheet online, and tomorrow the ups guy is taking this one back and I should get her new one by next saturday. That was such a hassle to fight with it for almost an hour, then  I said forget it they must be the wrong pieces. Other than that, it was an ok day, besides my pounding head, runny/stuffy nose, sore throat, and weak body. I am off to lay in bed with jay now and do some hw. Night!

Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it by the handle of uncertainty/fear, or by the handle of faith.

I'm horrible...fast days

Seriously, I guess school just takes over my life now... I always forget to write on here, or fall asleep before I get too. Oh I give up! yesterday was my birthday!!!! It was a very very good day! I got a new purse that I have had my eye on for a very long time, I also went and picked up the babies car seat and crib from walmart, If finally came in site-to-store, so jaylea and I put that together! So happy, I love it! I changed my entire degree today, I was going to a Bachelors in Business administration witha  major in finance, I was going to settle for something I was "ok" with doing, until I started thinking that I was not going to graduate with something I didn't want to do. So I was gonna change schools but I went back and looked at DeVry's catalog and they Do offer Criminal Justice Degree's. So I called and changed my entire degree. Now when I graduate, I will have a Bachelors of Science in Technical Management with a major in Criminal Justice. And I am SO SO SO SO SO excited. And it takes the same amount of time as my finance degree would have. I will be done and have my bachelors in hand by the begining of 2013!!! I can't wait! Tonight I had dinner with a new Friend, Nova, and another friend I hadn't seen for a while, Milissa, we had a GREAT night! I made chicken spaghetti with meatballs. And butter garlic cresents! It was DELICIOUS! And it was so much fun! Can't wait to do it again.! Other than that things are great right now, and this week is FLYING by! 

Can't wait till new moon comes out! I will be at walmart at 11:30 waiting for it, have to get two copies!

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle, rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.

Non stop homework=forgetful

Well sorry I haven't written for two days. I have been very tired and very busy! I really think there is too much to even recap on here, and this pregnancy over rides my brain, I pry couldn't even remember everything that has happened! Hmmm... I can't even think, so let me just recap whatever my mind can remember. Welp, pretty much nothing! My mind is fried, I have been doing hw non stop for the last like 3 days and yesterday I was up till 4 in the morning doing hw, and it has just been AWFUL! But on a side note...yesterday I got my Dozen Multi Colored roses from my hubby for my birthday, which is TOMORROW!!! YAY!!! They are absolutely beautiful! That was the best part of yesterday! Other than that, pretty much it has been hw non stop. My step father in law and his son came down today to get jasper and take him back home to ks with them, thank goodness, otto and him are not getting along and I just cannot have that,especially being pregnant. They keep fighting and it has just been horrible! They will be leaving tomorrow morning to head back though. Today before they got in I had to run to the nex and get them some soap as they left theirs at home, and in the process I bought a new vacum because mine did not have settings so I could vacum on something other than carpet, plus it clogs constantly, so I bought a new vacuum and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!! I will never have to sweep again, the suction is amazing and I just cannot believe how awesome this vacuum is! And I only paid 94.99. The previous vac. I had was almost 180 and not even close to this good, I love it so much. But that really is all that happened today. Other than me talking to jonathan, the vacuum was the only other exciting thing!  So I am going to end this here and go to bed at a decent time while I still can, I refuse to do hw tonight, because I really need to catch up on my z's. Good night!


Where we love is home,

Home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts.